Deep thoughts

Cheer up!

There's more to life
than sulking over a friendship gone wrong;
a relationship that never existed
or a fondness in the heart that was never reciprocated from the very beginning.

In life,
there are friends worth all the time and effort.
There are relationships that last a lifetime.
And someday, you'll find someone you'll give your entire heart to,
and you know very well,
that he will treasure it as if it were his own.

There's something in life that we call HOPE.

It's the thing that keeps us alive right now,
the drive that urges us to move forward, and not look back on all the the things that have happened in the past.

It comes in different forms:
a thing,
a stranger,
a friend.
It doesn't have to be something new.
It could have been there all along,
you were just too busy or preoccupied with something else
to have noticed its presence.
It allows us to appreciate what good life has to bring,
despite all the sad events.

As long as you see even just a little speck of hope in your life,
then I tell you,
you are one of the luckiest people in this world!

For my friends
who feel rejected,
lost
and alone;
for myself,
sad,
bitter,
troubled and confused.

This is in memory of the past
we can never forget
no matter how hard we try,
but we can definitely learn from,
as long as we believe in ourselves.

Remember,
it will heal. :)

Your Reputation at Hogwarts! (Includes the opinions of teachers my friend, and just about everyone else!) Girlies Please.

Congratulations!
Your name: Kat Worthington
Your house: Gryffindor
Year: Seventh
Your appearance: Pretty with long brown hair, clear emerald eyes.
Your amortentia smells: Roses, lavender, chocolate
Your patronus: Cougar
Blood?: Half blood
BF: Quite possibly Harry or Ron. You decide.

Students:
Harry: She's a really great person; beautiful and good hearted.
Ron:If only I could get her to actually look at me for once...
Hermoine: Kat's nice...but she's just like Harry and Ron when it comes to schoolwork; mooching off me!
Cho: She looks like she could be in a relationship with Harry...
Draco: Not really worth my time...but she is pretty. Very pretty.
Pansy: Right now, I neither like nor dislike her...but if Dracky-poo likes her, I hate her.
Fred/George: She's nice...Fun Person, but gets kinda mushy around Harry.
Neville: I like her. She helped me in herbology once. She's very talented.
Ginny: She's okay. Not mean or anything...but I hate her displays of affection whenever Harry's around.
Crabe/Goyle: Is she some kind of food?
Cedric (dead): She's beautiful...wouldn't really give a Hufflepuff the time of day though...

Teachers:
McGonagall: Fairly good student...very good at transfiguration. I'm proud of her.
Snape: Not pathetic, but not fabulous wither. None of my talent in potions. Annoying habit of staring at me loathingly.
Binns: Must pay more attention in class!
Trelawney: I see a bright future...clouded by something dark...her parents will perish!
Flitwick: Dreadful at charms, but a kind girl.Habit of falling asleep, but scrapes a passing grade in the end.
Sprout: Genius in herbology. Great student. She's grown better every year.
Hagrid: So cute with Harry...*sniffle*
Lupin: Kat's a good girl. Could work a bit on her patronus, but once that's picked up, she could be as excellent as Harry!
Mad-Eye: I dont see alot of potential...but who am I to judge?

Others:
Fleur: She 'as beeautiful 'air, and she ees ze nicest girl I've met at 'ogwarts.
Viktor: I don't know much about her.
Mr/Mrs. Weasley:
Molly: Oh she is darling! Came by one Christmas with Harry. They look so perfect together!
Arthur: Now, now, Molly...
Madame Rosmerta: Lovely girl. Helped me repair a whole cupboardful of glasses one year.
Tonks: She's pretty cool...helped me un-jam my hair color once. Did a real good job of it.
Voldemort: Anyone with connections to Harry should DIE!
Sirius (dead): I'm glad she and Harry like each other...sometimes reminds me of Lily and James.
Dumbledore (dead): Always a star at Hogwarts. Special place in my heart like Harry.
Filch: Don't see her often in hallways...clean record, I reckon.
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Alas!
And yet I am not one of a kind, but just
one, of the kind. >.<

My hands are still half numb, half shaking ten minutes I closed that book. This is why I hate reading slowly. I have this tendency to sink in every single word and detail of the story, then I start imagining myself in the story itself, and that creeps me out.

OMG, just in Chapter 5 and already one lost an ear, and another died. Can things get any worse?


Alright, that was a rhetorical question. Of course it will! >.<

Alright... so it's been a really really long time. Oh well, it's already the fourth week of school. School has been kind with me in some ways I couldn't quite understand. At first it seems really tough, but eventually things will be better. I just hope this keeps up through the rest of the sem. I don't mind tough work. All I really care is that things will turn out right in the end.

In other news, I am now, officially, a social-lifeless person. When last year I have to balance my acads atop of my shoulders, this year, I have to balance acads AND org work atop my skinny shoulders. >.< It's sad to confess too, that I've already missed watching a lot of movies this summer. Hopefully, after the GA video, I can watch Transformers finally. Also, I really, really want to watch HP5 this Saturday with Celadon!!! Wahh...!!!

Alright, so I haven't posted for a long time. School's about to start, and I'm proud to say I'm really looking forward to it. The last days of my summer vacation were well spent so to speak, since I've been a really useful person by volunteering for the yearly ORSEM (Freshmen Orientation Seminar) in Ateneo. Oh yah, and I got meself new shoes, or should I say my parents bought me new shoes, and I love them! I'm also writing a diary write now, for those really, really personal and stressful stuffs that are currently happening in my life. My first entry was actually three pages long because I was really furious that time for... certain personal reasons. Anyway, I'll keep you posted, although I'm pretty sure hardly anyone is going through here right now.

I woke up at 5 am today. For what you may ask? Enlistment that's what. Summer classes are over but the first sem is fast approaching. A part of me really wants to get back to school. I tell you, life at home is really, really boring. But hell knows what lies ahead of me this school year. Pressure man, pressure. Anyway, I pretty much like my schedule for the next school year, but, oh well, who knows what's gonna happen? One thing's for sure though, I'd be spending a lot of time in the Celadon room, CompSAT room, Rizal lib or Matteo. Then, there's the problem of getting to school and back. My schedule's different from last year and since I'm a "squatter", I really can't expect my family to adjust with my new schedule. Oh well, poor me.

Lately, I've been feeling a lot more neglected and ignored, I dunno why. >.< Watching Goal! today sort of brightened up my day. Thanks to Nicole! Besides the really hot lead, Kuno Becker, this movie is one of those like Coach Carter, Honey and You Got Served. Reminds me how much I miss playing futsal, my futsal shoes, shin guards and socks all shunned behind the closet. Oh yah, and did I mention that Kuno Becker is a hottie? He reminds me a lot of Chad Michael Murray. Maybe I really like guys who are bald. Hmmm... oh and Kuno Becker was dreamy. How many times have I said that? XP Really, you should watch the movie if you still haven't.



Kuno Becker is <3!

OMG this is hilarious

I took this quiz that I got from Paulo. The result was kind of expected of me.





Take the What Fantasy Archetype Are You? Quiz by Vara Sundaisy


But wait, there's more. This one's part of the results too.

Examples of Adventurous Heroes:

Indiana Jones
Harry Potter
Speed Racer
Ranma Saotome, Ranma 1/2
Spike, Cowboy Bebop
Captain Jack Sparrow, Pirates of the Caribbean <--- oh yah beybeh! XP
Camella Winchester, Winchester Universe

I have to write this down right now before I finally burst...

Malas ka talaga. Kung kailan akala mong maganda na ang nakuha mo, may mas magagandang makukuha pa rin ang susunod sa iyo. Bakit kaya? Hindi lang ba alam ng ibang tao ang gusto mo? O malas ka lang talaga? O baka, napilitan lang sila bigyan ka?

Ano man ang dahilan, aminin mo na, tanggapin mo na, MALAS ka lang talaga.

I need Bleach 123. I need it, I need it, like an obsession. WAAAAAHHHH.... I can't go on with my marathon if the friggin UTorrent won't finish downloading it today. WAAAAAHHHHHHH...... 123!!

I saw a pretty sight today. XP
I saw someone with really, really beautiful eyes, like those of a goddess! Dark, round eyes that look so lively from afar and so lovely up close. With really, really long and curvy eyelashes too! Ooooh... pretty pretty. I envy those eyes, unlike mine that are teensy weensy small. Booooo....



Errr... oh yah, did I mention he's a guy? Golly, he looks like a doll with those eyes. LOL. XP

Ansama ko talaga.... nyahahaha... XP XP XP

What Heroes Character Are You? Claire Bennet! Your Claire, your spunky, cute, and are virtually invulnerable.

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My cousin got married last Sunday. The wedding was held at the church near MOA. It was my first time to go in there and I really think it's a nice, cozy place. I was one of the secondary sponsors, cord sponsor to be exact. Basically, all I had to do was to place the cord on the wedded couple. But afterward, I had more stuff to do.

Since they didn't call for a wedding planner, it was my cousin (the groom's younger sister) who was in charge of everything. The two of us had to go to the restaurant an hour earlier to make the final preparations. I was later assigned to the entrance, along with another secondary sponsor from the bride's side, to let people sign in the couple's dedication book.

The funniest part in the dinner was when my name was called, along with my cousin's office mates, to have a picture with the newly-weds. I was surprised and I thought they called my name by mistake, but a look from cousin told me it wasn't. So I went on stage, 3 ladies and 3 guys took a group picture with the couple. Then another 6 people were called, one of them was my older girl cousin. Seeing that it was just a picture taking, she went on stage without hesitation. After the picture taking though, the emcee suddenly announced: "Congratulations! You six are the chosen singles to play our game tonight!" My girl cousin's face was priceless. She was shocked, while I on the other hand couldn't stop laughing. I was so lucky I wasn't chosen for the game. HARHAR. Anyway, I still haven't asked my cousin why he included my name in the list, since I just turned 18?!

LOL, does that mean I can have a boyfriend now? XP

I realized that my blog turned a year old last April 10. Pft, how insensitive of me. Anyway, happy birthday beesandsparrows. I'm glad you actually lasted for more than a year, considering that your older brother, whaoynneey was a big waste of time and was abandoned by yours truly within a year.

Yah, I used to be a bad blogger. XP

Anyway, nuther busy weekend. And I'm brain dead. Must be because of what happened last night. Or maybe it's because of the dream. Or maybe, I'm just being EMO again. Pft.

*Author's Note:
The original of this post can be found here. Although considering that it is a private blog, the author has decided to post it here as well. For those with LJ accounts, please click on the link above. Many thanks.*

If I were born to a wealthy family, I wouldn't be what I am now.

It all started last Tuesday, May 1. My family went "window shopping" at SM. I have to admit it's been a long time since I last stepped inside a mall, so I was able to look through a lot of cool new stuff and new things that set the latest trends, as well as more new things to crave for.

Sadly, as I have said, I can only crave for these things. I remember last month while my parents were filling up my scholarship update form, I noticed that our family income didn't increase for the past year while our yearly expenses increased by a large amount. At first, I was really surprised that our expenses could still get this high considering that we didn't have to pay for my tuition (which really saves up a lot of money). After last Tuesday, I finally found the answer.

Prices of commodities have turned so high, it's amazing how some people can still afford these stuff. Perhaps, you have to be really, really rich to afford them. While I went through a new line of clothes and jeans from Lee, this was my usual routine: 1) I'd look through the designs, and if I found something I really like I'll 2) check the price tag. Well, surprise, surprise. The clothes actually cost more than my weekly school allowance. Mom kept urging me to try them on but I said, why bother? Why do you bother trying them on, finding them a perfect fit for you but in the end, you'll only be returning them back to the clothes' rack? I mean, what's the point? Hell ya, I've been wearing the same clothes over and over again. And my pants seem to be shrinking through constant wear, either because I grew taller or they're just really, really old. But that's the only thing your life can offer you, so face it. That's all you've got. Don't try too hard to improve yourself because no matter how beautiful your shell is, you still have the same inside.

I've been sulking since then. It sux to be poor. Well, I guess, I'm much more fortunate than other lower-class people but it certainly sux if you can't afford to buy the things you want. It also sux how everything bad that happened in your life starts to go back to you in your most miserable times. And to think the reason behind all these misery is the fact that I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth. Thus, the status message.

Ozy was the only one who gave me a very reasonable explanation to my predicament.

osmond go: And what is it that you are now?
Honey: poor
Honey: deprived
Honey: socially discriminated
osmond go: And if you were born to a wealthy family, do you think that you will have the same intelligence, friends, experiences?
osmond go: Everyone wants to be an heir/heiress.
osmond go: We are who we make ourselves to be.
osmond go: You only feel poor because you are surrounded by wealthy people.
osmond go: You are only deprived because you choose to live by their standards.
osmond go: And you are socially discriminated because you are Chinese, you can't do anything about that. Pinas tayo eh
Honey: *blink blink*
Honey: hands down ozy

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osmond go: But I doubt if you would want to have been sent to a lower-class school and be the richest and least deprived by default.
osmond go: Anyways wag mo na isipin yan, it only makes a person feel bad about themselves because they neglect to see the good things that have happened in their lives.

Thanks Ozy, grabe hands down talaga. You definitely shut me up after that. I mean, there's nothing else left to be said. Why complain about life when there are so many things you have to be grateful for? For one, I'm grateful I'm studying the course I love, in a university I love and that I'm part of an organization I love. Perhaps, if I were born to a wealthy family, I wouldn't realize how much these things mean to me. Sure, I'll get all the material things I've always wanted, but I'm definitely going to miss out the most important thing that has been keeping me going until now: fighting for my own successes.

They may be few, but I'm proud to say I've shed tears and blood by attaining them. And fortunately, they're all worth it.

Thank God I'm ME!!!

Last April 30, I went on a roadtrip with my father to Binan, Laguna. It was my uncle and cousin's birthday celebration and since mom was busy, I had to represent her for the occasion. Undoubtedly, I fell asleep on our way there. It was a really long trip, took us two hours just to get there because of the heavy traffic along Alabang. When we finally got there, turned out that many of our family members have not arrived yet. Pa and I helped ourselves to the buffet table, I went there twice. XP Then I was really, really bored. Good thing my aunt brought her laptop with her, although there was no WiFi Access, my cousin and I kept ourselves busy by playing the card games available in Windows. At the same time, I got in touch with my Chinese fangirl self. We got home at around 12 midnight. I was dog tired. But sometimes, it just feels great to be reunited with relatives and simply keeping in touch with the old me. XP

I'm back with JJ. LOL. I remembered how I fell in love with his voice when I was still a sophie back in high school. Eventually, he drifted away when I decided to get serious with my studies again. Well, he must have missed this fan of his. Yesterday, I got my new glasses. Then we were on our way to eat lunch when we passed by a small Chinese shop selling DVDs and CDs. I was really pissed at that time and was walking really fast because of the heat, but I instantly stopped my tracks when I caught sight of that shop at the corner of my eye. It's been so long since the last time I went to China to update my song lists. And my favorite downloading site failed me, so you can say I've been Chinese-songs deprived for two years. Mom was interested too, so we both went into without another word. (Yah, Pa was forced to go in with us too. XP) Here's what happened:

Ma: Zong Yi (that's my Chinese name), go check out if they have good artists with new albums.
Me: Sure. More than glad to do so. (stupid grin plastered across my face)
Me (to myself): SHE, eew. New band, eew. Mayday, coolie! Jay Chou, eew. Andy Lau, oldie. David Tao, kewl! Err... wats this?

There was another CD that fell of the rack as I pulled out David Tao's album. When I picked it up, to my greatest delight, it was JJ's latest album! JJ's doing his miracles again. XP

All the time until we got home, I didn't let go of JJ's CD. (Well besides the time I ate lunch. LOL) I played the CD the moment I turned on my computer. Yes, JJ never fails to pull at my heart strings. XP

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I just got home from our EXTrated Plansem. Yup, it was the greatest overnight I had. XP I can't believe I'm officially an Externals manager already. And yes, I got the project I've always wanted: Celadon Week. Kumusta naman? Good luck to Kirsten and me!

During Plansem, the EXTrated managers had lots of bonding time, and exclusive sabaw moments courtesy of Francis. I now see the reason why Aidz and Je insisted that as much as possible, we could have an overnight plansem at someone's house. Well, thanks to Lence, we had a really, really great time at his place. From Friday afternoon straight till Saturday morning, we were temporarily separated from the summer heat of the outside. XP And who could forget our amazing Mcdo moments? XP Overnight can really increase the bond in the group involved. In just one night, we played poker, played O2 Jam, watched YouTube videos, ate junk food and simply chatted the night away. I can't wait for Formsem already. I bet there will be more fun in store for us, since we'll be meeting all of Celadon's managers by then.Who knows? There might be beer, and that definitely spells F-U-N!!!

Tomorrow is the last day of my first week of classes. As of now, I'm really, really enjoying my summer classes. I just hope my interest stays with me for the rest of the term, and the workload of each class will remain as reasonable as possible. XP

I'm finally learning how to speak Nihonggo. Well, takes some time for me to decipher each letter, but I guess I'll improve through constant practice. Psych class is just as interesting as it could get. I remember my classes with Ma'am Kara and that just drives me more to take my Psych class seriously.

I attended the 40th AJSS opening yesterday. I saw Cybill again! XP There are 72 participants again this year. There faces remind me of ours the first time we gathered in that freezing Escaler Hall. It surprises me sometimes how time flies so fast. Two years ago, as I sat among my AJSS classmates in Escaler Hall for our graduation, studying in Ateneo was just a dream, a goal I promised myself to work hard for. Now two years after, I'm finally in! Needless to say, I've gone through a lot to have gotten this far, but at least as for now, I haven't regretted a single bit, yet. XP