Hey, I just noticed not much people are visiting my blog. Boohoo...:( Do I have to start contests like what Meklot did? Anyway, I really haven't finished watching Frog Prince, but I think I'll soon file a divorce with JJ Lam, because now I'm falling in love with someone in 183 Club. Hehe... Although I was kidding about the divorce part, but I'm quite serious with the rest though. :P

Yes, yes I'm procrastinating again. A week of sembreak has passed and I haven't finished a single chapter. I certainly hope I could finish at least one after I finished watching Frog Prince. Lately, I've been busy searching and saving videos of 183 Club and 7 Flowers at You Tube. Wow, now I see the advantage of You Tube besides my No. 1 source of Bleach.

I've also been quite a nerd last week. Still no baked items because we haven't bought the necessary ingredients yet. So what was left to do was reading, sleeping, watching TV and Frog Prince, and surprisingly, studying! Sigh. I guess I am desperate...

It surprises me how a mere teleseries could make me think this much. Well, I know I'm a thinker. But I usually resume my thinking-self after I watched a really meaningful movie or read a really inspiring book. And yet, how can "The Frog Prince" become a meaningful and inspiring film? Yes, its definitely a comedy just by the looks of the design of the DVD: a cartoon frog wearing a little crown. The story is also a comedy: a girl coming from a poor family, whose ultimate goal is to marry a rich guy, and on she goes on her adventure to find the perfect rich guy for a husband. Still, this film made me think a lot. I thought that this story may seem like a comedy, but I could easily relate it with my own life.

Well, laugh if you must, but I always picture myself as a princess waiting for my prince. Probably because I watched too many Princesses' movies when I was a kid, that I started to believe that every girl has a prince meant for them, and that the princess will have to wait, until the day when her prince charming will come and sweep her off her feet and bring her to the wonderful palace, where they live happily ever after. Sigh. I used to believe that everything will end with happily ever after. It wasn't until I grew up, got my heart broken many times and got to college, till I realized that, WAIT! Reality check. Life ain't that perfect. A fairy tale princess may go through many hardships, but in the end, she would finally meet her prince. But a real life princess will go through all sorts of difficulties, and what does she get in the end? A frog, or perhaps, she'll just die an old maid.

I once received a text from a friend. It goes this way:
It's better for a princess to sleep a hundred years and be kissed and awaken by the right prince, than to stay awake and be kissed a hundred times by the wrong frog.

When I got this message I was like "WOW! That surely hit the spot." But just like what I said, real life isn't a fairy tale. Poor girls finding their rich princes only happen in movies. In real life, no way! Only rich girls get the good guys. 麻雀变凤凰是不可能的。“A maya bird can't turn into a phoenix." Once a poor girl, always a poor girl. Only way to become rich is counting on yourself, and not one your non-existent prince charming.

"I just found out there's no such thing as the real world, just a lie you got to rise above."

在最紧急关头，绝望将会变成希望。
"At the worst scenario of your predicament, your hopelessness would become your hope. "

I'm not really good at translating, and I know most of you can't understand Chinese, but I find this really inspiring. I got this line from a Taiwan teleseries. The protagonist told a story about a frog who was stuck in the desert. It kept digging into the earth to find a source of water. One day, when the last of its strength was about to fade away, it dug upon a huge rock. At the sight of it, the frog gave up and eventually died of thirst. What it didn't know, if it had only moved that big rock, water it had longed for so long would gush out of the earth.

Lesson of the story? When you're feeling hopeless, the more you should not give up. Instead, you should keep on working for your goal, and your feeling of hopelessness would turn into your source of hope.

Whoever said that money isn't everything simply didn't have enough money to spend for himself. And the rich man who said money doesn't make the world go round, simply didn't know how to spend his money on meaningful stuff. I'm not rich. I'm not poor either. But I lack the financial capability of availing the basic "wants" of a human being. Am I complaining or ranting about my life? Maybe yes maybe no. But if I were given the chance to choose, I want to be born rich. I would not want to suffer the liabilities I suffered right now.

idle day

First official day of sembreak. Well let's see what I did... I was supposed to start with Chapter 15, then I was supposed to read the first 100 pages of Angels and Demons, I was supposed to bake the first batch of brownies, I was supposed to watch the first 10 episodes of Frog Prince. But guess what? I slept the whole day. I woke up just to eat lunch and dinner, and to read around 30 pages from my book. Oh well, I have to attend a wedding tomorrow, then the school's procession in the afternoon, so I guess my next FRUITFUL sembreak day would be on Monday. hehe.. Wish me luck then!

First sem is finally over. Now I got plenty of time to spend this sembreak. What's so good in college, is that you get to spend a longer sembreak compared to highschool. The many things I plan to do this sembreak include sleeping, writing new chapters for my stories, download new songs and pics, play games, watching TV, watching DVD and of course cooking and baking for my cousins. It feels so great and relieving to know that I won't have to go to school for 3 weeks. Hooray! Oh well, till here then.

Mastermind is officially over. Now I be heading back to my ordinary student self. After Friday, I'm officially free. By then, I should have about more to say here. I'd also be updating my story. Phew... hope I'll be able to do that. Till here for now then.

~I still love him... weeee!

I think I'm in love again, but surprisingly, my new crush is actually the "bad-boy" type. Eeeck! I usually don't like "bad boys" but I don't know why I finally fell for one. Anyway, this is so not the time for crushes. Gotta stop thinking about him. *medidates ~ooooom.....~* Finals, finals, finals, finals, finals, finals, finals...

Who would you choose: the one you love or the person who loves you?

First of all, take note that this world is not a perfect world. Nothing is perfect, and so are we. Because we are not perfect, we cannot expect things to be perfect as well. Then what shall we do about this? I guess the only way is to be easily contented.

They say that in your life, you will meet three people: the one you love, the one who loves you, and the one you will spend your life with. Sadly, these three people are not the same person. What a sad but true reality. It comes to show that it's so hard to love someone. And after all the hardships you've gone through to love him, you still can't call him yours. Well what's the point of loving if that's the case, right?! Wrong. Just as I've said, nothing is perfect, life isn't perfect. You can love that person during your life time, but since life ain't perfect, that person won't love you back. When the person you love breaks your heart, stop, and think for a while. Didn't you just break the heart of the person who loves you?

Well of course, if you can't be with the one you love, and you don't want to be with the one who loves you, you would just have to be with the one you don't love and doesn't love you back for the rest of your life. Sad isn't it? Well you're asking for it!

Why do I say that? Because you're being a stupidly stubborn person. So what if the person you love doesn't love you back? Don't you feel fortunate that someone actually loves you? Love is easy to give and hard to receive as they say. So when someone loves you, why don't you try loving him back? Life ain't perfect, so if someone knocks at your heart's door, open it wide, invite him in. Who knows, perhaps once you fall in love with him, you'll find out that you're one of the few lucky ones in the world who could find the three persons in just one guy.

The one who loves me. Because it is he who cherishes me, it is he who cares for me, and it is he who knows how much I'm worth in this world, which even I cannot say myself.

Tomorrow's our finals in Filipino... EEEEEP!!! I am so dead, mashed, gonna screw up, what else? I am so d*** nervous! Then tomorrow's also our long test in math! Double EEEEP!!! Then next week is hell week: finals week!!! Triple EEEEEEEEP!!! I'm so gonna die. Wish me luck!!! Boohoo!

- A bad case of worms -

I went to school yesterday to attend a make-up class for Ma18. After class, I stayed behind to chat with Sher and EJ along the corridors of Sec A. And guess who we found in need of company? A small worm the size of a fingernail. I was the first one to find him, slowly and quietly wriggling beside us. Well, we were amazed and disgusted at the same time seeing how its body would arch up and down as it wriggled its way to who knows where. Too engrossed on it were we, that we look so stupid staring at it for around 10 minutes or so, not moving a single muscle. I wasn't sure who started the idea, but Sher was the one who found a way to fulfill it. After fumbling in her bag, she found a sheet of paper, with which, without warning, she sliced the worm in its middle. How dreadful it was to see both ends of the worm squirm as the paper ran between it. Sher got disgusted at once and released the paper which left the worm writhing in pain. Dreadful and pitiless that act was yet we didn't stop there. The worm, probably sensing the danger that lie ahead of him, took a U-turn. I took the upperhand and I blew at it. It tossed a little and landed on his legs in around a few millimeters away from where he originally was. Well for him that could be miles... Anyway, that got it dizzy for quite a while, and with no plan to seize action, the three of us started blowing at it. And a huff and a puff and we blew the worm off the edge of the seat and in to the jagged rocks of oblivion below. Before I left, EJ announced that he spotted the worm still wriggling over the rocks, but it didn't matter to me anymore if it were alive or not. I thought of what I did to the poor worm. I know I was mean to do that, but I considered it a kind of stress relief. Frankly, I'm feeling like the worm now, dizzy and with no place to go. But how I wish there really is someone up there blowing me around, because at least the time will come when he will get tired of fooling me around, and I can finally be in peace with myself, and get on with my life.

Why haven't I posted for so long?
1. I'm so not in the mood.
2. I'm in a really, really bad mood. Nothing I've done turned out right, and that fact is pissing me off.
3. Problems, problems, problems. Friends, school, and more.
4. Bad weather. I didn't have internet connection for two days.
5. I'm just... feeling really bad.