Theories when you're Sugar High

Theory no. 1:
The Love Theory

Using me as basis, I love my mom more than anyone and anything else in the world. Therefore, we can say that around 80% of the "warm-blooded" people in this world feels the same way towards their mothers too, and that includes my own mom. So, if the mom I love so much loves my grandmother (who is my mom's mom) then that would mean no one would love me more than anything in the world, besides my own children. Then, I would have to wait for like 15-20 years till that happens. In the meantime, my current pickup line would be, as Tj taught me, "I'm single, wanna mingle?"

So, am I corny or

am I corny?!

No words could fully describe the situation. In short, it was definitely terrifying. The sounds of the men barging in, the children crying; there were shouts, cries, wails, and there was blood. There was blood shed as injustice swept through the place of crime. You want to hide, but there's no place to hide where they can't find you. You want to run, but there's no way to run to where they can't follow you. There was no escape, and you are stuck there, feeling alone and worthless. But over all, it was horrifying, the sight of blood tormented me the whole night. Could it have happened to me, could things have gone worse, will today be the same again? I am greatly troubled. There's not much I can do; there's nothing I want to do. Suddenly, the desire to do something worthwhile had vanished, replaced by an urge to retaliate, to curse them one by one. God help me, is there another way? Should things have evolved to this stage? Is there a better and more effective way, to find...

Peace?

happy... shalalala...

The day started out bad. I was late for like 5 minutes! I just hope Maam Didit wouldn't mind... boohoo! It's the LRT's fault, imagine experiencing "sudden" technical difficulty. *sob* You failed me!!!!! *dramatic huh?!*

Anyway, today is yet another happy day. Why? That's because I saw both Tom and Jerry *wow! how funny they sound when said together* a while ago at the caf. If only I could, I would be screaming like h*ll seeing them there! Then the next exciting was also during lunch at the caf when some blue babble applicants *I think* were showing live performances for the lunch show. Go Jelvin! haha...

Suddenly, I felt so proud to be an Atenean at last. I dunno why but after three days living the life of an Atenean, I am seriously very happy. Since summer 2005 when I spent over a month at ADMU for the AJSS, I told myself: "I'm not going to any other university besides Ateneo!" Well yah, there were complications, but now, I'm finally in! That feeling of happiness and satisfaction probably no one would understand. Thank God I'm an Atenean! Go 'teneo!!!

Second day. It could have been better if it hadn't been for Filipino class! Gosh, I'm definitely going to basic class... boohoo... Anyway, Math left me brain dead as well. Then it was a long, long lunch break with nothing to do. Uber boring.

PE was like wow! We're done?! Anyway, I waited like for 2 hours at the library for my cousin. I suppose I'd be spending more of my college life at the library from now on, which can be a good and a bad thing... hehe... toodles.

Oh happy day...!!!

Well, first day wasn't so bad. I like Ma'am Didit! I always thought she looked like Bibi!!! Really cute! Then the English diagnostic was like... duh! I even fell asleep in the middle of the test. *haha... so Honey-like*

Lunch time was like whoa...crowded. I had a really great time with my blockmates. I pity Matt so much. He was the center of discussion among us girls since he was the only guy in the table. Then we were practicing John's traditional greeting. *in a really deep voice* "Hey blockmate!"

Math was pretty much okay. There was one guy who stormed into our class and later realized that he entered the wrong class! haha... He looked a lot like Osmond. Too bad it wasn't him, or else it would be a great joke! haha... Oops, sorry Os!

After class, Meklot, Kim, Matt and I hang out at the, guess where, LIBRARY! Yah we were like so nerdy but the library was cool, woohoo aircon! But soon enough, block N-ers couldn't stand the silence of the library so we left.

Poor Matt, we just wouldn't stop teasing him, haha... Peace out Matt!

and the song goes...

current song and current mood:

Here's a story of a girl,

Living in a lonely world,

A hidden note, A secret crush,

A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,

And when you smile I check you out,

But you don't even know my name,

You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,

If you lose your way, I won't let you go.

[Chorus]

If I cut my hair, If I change my clothes, Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip, If i say hello, Will you notice me?

Whats it gonna take for you to see

I want you to notice me.

After reading my previous entry for the nth time, I realized how paranoid I am. Well, yah I guess that's what happens to me always when I'm feeling a bit down and taken for granted...

Well school starts tomorrow and I'm pretty excited! Frankly, I just want to see them again huahua... but on the other hand, I want to experience the Ateneo life at last.

Oh and by the way, I'll be giving my two cuties codenames. The first cute guy would be Jerry and the second smart guy would be Tom. Nyahaha... corny!!! Well its not my fault I'm bored... toodles!

thinking of you

Alright, I'm saying this now. Currently, I'm crushing on someone... and I mean a major crush. Gosh, I can't believe I'm falling for him, even though he's a lot shorter than me and I don't know him that well either. But since that instant when I saw him, I was entirely captivated by his charming smile and his eyes, oh his eyes could talk, really. Since then, I can't stop staring at him. Oh my, he must think I'm a lunatic or something but wadahek?! I can't take my eyes off him!!! To those who would probably know whom I'm talking about, please, just keep them to yourselves. It's just a crush anyway and... I think he's got a girlfriend. GASP. Well, keep on dreaming Honey. Only a miracle could make him grow 2 inches taller than you and get him to notice you.

Then there's this other guy. Well, at least I know his course and what year he is in. Thanks to a friend, I also know his name! He's really cool, cute and smart I think, considering the course he's taking. He's also got this smile that could melt my heart completely. Sigh. Problem is, I don't think he'd ever bother noticing me anyway. I'm not the kind of girl who's got enough guts to befriend him. Just a hi or hello would send me scampering away from him and screaming at the top of my voice. Sadly, cute guys don't like unpretty and brainy girls like me. Not that I'm saying I'm unpretty and brainy but, isn't that what everyone thinks of me??

Gosh, why should I fall for cute guys? I'm always telling myself that I don't qualify their "standards" yet I just keep falling and falling even deeper. Now I truly understand how Meklot is feeling. Just as I've always told myself, it's easy to love someone, but don't expect him to love you the way you love him. What's worse, oyu can't even just walk in front of him and tell him your feelings. There's so much love in my heart trying to burst out of their shell but I just can't let them out. I don't want to fall for the wrong person and get my heart broken. I've had enough bad experiences mind you. But golly, I can't shake off their faces and their smiles off my mind. Sob, reality hurts.

the Ateneo way begins...

The most expected ORSEM is finally over. Indeed, no other university does it the way ADMU does. I really enjoyed these three, fun-filled days with my blockmates and my friends. The happiest thing that happened to me was to meet my friends from the China tour I attended back when I was in Grade 6. It felt so amazing to meet people you haven't seen for 5 years, and they seem so different and at the same time so familiar. Funny how we would stare at each other and suddenly realizing that he or she was a friend you held on to on that memorable day of May 13, 2002 when we parted ways.


The next happiest thing, is that I met lots of new friends. I was really nervous about this whole ORSEM thing. I thought I wouldn't know anyone there and I would feel out of place. Turned out I was wrong after all. I really enjoyed the company of my blockmates in CS and my English blockmates. Of course, these wonderful and fun moments wouldn't be "wonderful and fun" without our amazingly wacky and enthusiastic TNTs: Iwel, Aisa, Kat and Trish. Don't forget our equally wacky LOGs: Jay, Issa and Pau. Especially Kat and Pau, without them, I guess block R18 wouldn't be as "wholesome" and enjoying as it already is.


Registration is today and I can now proudly say that I am an Atenean! I'm blue blood through and through... woohoo! One thing worries me though, and that's none other than my course. Can I get through it alive? Can I survive it? I just hope I can...


As of now, my mind is filled with... let's say "other" stuff. *sigh*